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I'm interviewing for the U. S. and 77 X class life stories, memories and oral histories.\r\n\r\n2 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:00:21 --\u003e 00:00:43\r\nI was state university, please know, and these are aware that this is a recorded interview. I'm only placed in the Iowa State University parks library, and it may be made available online via YouTube or a similar platform. If there's anything you do not wish to answer or talk about, especially given that you're recording, may appear online.\r\n\r\n3 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:00:43 --\u003e 00:01:01\r\nI will honor your wishes also. If there is something you want to talk about, please bring it up and we'll talk about it because we are not conducting this interview in person. I need to required you consenting. So I'll ask you a series of 5 questions. Please say, yes, I agree or? No, I do not agree after each 1.\r\n\r\n4 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:01:01 --\u003e 00:01:05\r\nThere are 2 questions we need to make sur you agree to before we go. All right.\r\n\r\n5 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:01:05 --\u003e 00:01:19\r\nOkay, do you give us 377 X class consent to archive your interview and your materials at the parks library? Yes.\r\n\r\n6 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:01:19 --\u003e 00:01:21\r\nDo you.\r\n\r\n7 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:01:21 --\u003e 00:01:28\r\nThe 177 X class copyright over the interview and any material you provide yes.\r\n\r\n8 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:01:28 --\u003e 00:01:31\r\nDo you agree to allow us to post this interview?\r\n\r\n9 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:01:31 --\u003e 00:01:36\r\nThe Internet where it may be viewed by other people around the world yes.\r\n\r\n10 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:01:36 --\u003e 00:01:38\r\nDo you hear me.\r\n\r\n11 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:01:38 --\u003e 00:01:43\r\nQuestions in a Pre interview form that we've already filled out. We use that information from the point of view to form.\r\n\r\n12 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:01:43 --\u003e 00:01:59\r\nTo form to help and research the entire form is kept in a secure U. S. LS class server before we send it to the parks, we would have shipped out any contact information for yourself or family members. That would not be a part of your public file.\r\n\r\n13 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:01:59 --\u003e 00:02:02\r\nYour public file will only be accessible at the parks library.\r\n\r\n14 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:02:02 --\u003e 00:02:10\r\nDo you wish for us to share the rest of your interview and your public file available to researchers at the parks library? Guess.\r\n\r\n15 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:02:11 --\u003e 00:02:25\r\nIn U. S. LS 367 X class receives request from journalists who wish to contact her interview subjects. We can only deal with legitimate news outlets. She gives consent to share your phone numbers or your email journalists.\r\n\r\n16 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:02:25 --\u003e 00:02:31\r\nAll right let's get started, so.\r\n\r\n17 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:02:31 --\u003e 00:02:50\r\nMy 1st, question today is, as we have discussed, and prior to this interview, do you, you do have autism I was hoping to discuss how this affected you academically and how you also learned how to succeed Despite this.\r\n\r\n18 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:02:50 --\u003e 00:02:53\r\nI feel like academically I.\r\n\r\n19 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:02:53 --\u003e 00:02:56\r\nDid struggle quite a bit um.\r\n\r\n20 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:02:56 --\u003e 00:03:01\r\nLike, I was great with, like, the whole like.\r\n\r\n21 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:03:01 --\u003e 00:03:13\r\nPatterns and everything, which is typical for a lot of people with autism. So I really liked the kind of structured flow of classrooms. Um.\r\n\r\n22 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:03:13 --\u003e 00:03:21\r\nBut every once in a while, um, I would be, like, caught off guard by something new that they were doing or, um.\r\n\r\n23 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:03:21 --\u003e 00:03:34\r\nJust like a new way of teaching. I was very strict to, like, I can only learn 1 specific way. Uh, when I was younger.\r\n\r\n24 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:03:34 --\u003e 00:03:41\r\nSo that was a little difficult. I definitely struggled with like, math and reading. Um.\r\n\r\n25 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:03:41 --\u003e 00:03:48\r\nWhich is also, like, typical for a lot of people with autism. Um.\r\n\r\n26 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:03:48 --\u003e 00:03:58\r\nBut I did end up winning, um, Pi, memorizing contest when I was like, in middle school. So, um.\r\n\r\n27 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:03:58 --\u003e 00:04:06\r\nI think that was like, the highlight of my middle school years, if I'm being honest. So, yeah.\r\n\r\n28 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:04:06 --\u003e 00:04:11\r\nDescribed patterns could you explain that a little bit more to people that? I don't know like.\r\n\r\n29 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:04:11 --\u003e 00:04:16\r\nKind of patterns like.\r\n\r\n30 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:04:16 --\u003e 00:04:26\r\nShapes and colors and stuff so when I was like younger in elementary school, I caught on really fast.\r\n\r\n31 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:04:26 --\u003e 00:04:34\r\nCompared to, like, other kids and then when we started going up into the harder stuff like reading, I was.\r\n\r\n32 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:04:34 --\u003e 00:04:43\r\nSuper behind on reading, Super behind on math, but then at 1 point, I.\r\n\r\n33 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:04:43 --\u003e 00:04:48\r\nStarted kind of making a little game in my head.\r\n\r\n34 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:04:48 --\u003e 00:04:54\r\nSorry oh, I'm just describing how I, um.\r\n\r\n35 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:04:54 --\u003e 00:05:05\r\nIt kind of made it through elementary and middle school. I started making a little game in my head where I would like, accumulate little points.\r\n\r\n36 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:05:05 --\u003e 00:05:16\r\nAnd if I didn't, like, leave a day, without, like, a specific amount of points, then I wouldn't be able to like.\r\n\r\n37 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:05:16 --\u003e 00:05:21\r\nI have something that I wanted that night.\r\n\r\n38 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:05:21 --\u003e 00:05:31\r\nI was really trying to self discipline at the time, because at that time, no 1 knew that I was artistic. Um, so I was really trying to.\r\n\r\n39 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:05:31 --\u003e 00:05:35\r\nCompensate to, like, make my parents proud um.\r\n\r\n40 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:05:35 --\u003e 00:05:43\r\nSo, I ended up using a lot of like like patterns and, like.\r\n\r\n41 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:05:43 --\u003e 00:06:03\r\nKind of I had a very strict little schedule that I followed every single day. Like, um, my mom and I had to wake up at, like, 5 in the morning so that she could go to work. So she would take me there to work with her. She worked at a daycare, so.\r\n\r\n42 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:06:03 --\u003e 00:06:10\r\nDo you take me to work with her? Then I would get on the bus and then I would go through my scheduled classes, like very.\r\n\r\n43 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:06:10 --\u003e 00:06:18\r\nNumerically very like, set with any of that ever changed. I would like.\r\n\r\n44 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:06:18 --\u003e 00:06:23\r\nAt the time, I didn't know I was going on verbal, but I couldn't like.\r\n\r\n45 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:06:23 --\u003e 00:06:27\r\nTalk to other people.\r\n\r\n46 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:06:27 --\u003e 00:06:33\r\nSo that's kind of how my elementary in, like, early middle squares when.\r\n\r\n47 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:06:33 --\u003e 00:06:37\r\nStuff like that so you're.\r\n\r\n48 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:06:37 --\u003e 00:06:47\r\nDuring your 3rd year at Iowa State, what are some accommodations you found, or any times where you struggled to find a combinations and courses.\r\n\r\n49 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:06:47 --\u003e 00:06:54\r\nI feel like I always date is super good with accommodations. Um.\r\n\r\n50 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:06:54 --\u003e 00:07:14\r\nWhen I got diagnosed with autism, I told them that I was diagnosed and they were like, okay, we'll get you these specific accommodations. You have like, a nice little meeting with them and they like, help work through your problems. And like, it's pretty much. The whole thing. Is like, what can we do.\r\n\r\n51 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:07:14 --\u003e 00:07:21\r\nFor you, which is really nice, because usually, it's like, what can I do too?\r\n\r\n52 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:07:21 --\u003e 00:07:24\r\nKind of succeed and.\r\n\r\n53 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:07:24 --\u003e 00:07:31\r\nLike, be meet my peers where they're at, you know, but, um.\r\n\r\n54 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:07:31 --\u003e 00:07:51\r\nWhat I would say it's more like, we know that you're struggling. We know that like, you're trying your hardest what can we do to help you succeed and I really like that about it. Um, 1 thing, though, I did break my ankle very recently and it's hard to get around. So I've been looking for accommodations for.\r\n\r\n55 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:07:51 --\u003e 00:07:56\r\nBut it doesn't seem to be that many.\r\n\r\n56 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:07:56 --\u003e 00:08:09\r\nSorry to hear about your ankle, have you found a sense of community? I would say or rather it is the Latino or the autism community and describe it if so, um.\r\n\r\n57 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:08:09 --\u003e 00:08:15\r\nI feel like the Latino community is really.\r\n\r\n58 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:08:15 --\u003e 00:08:26\r\nThere's kind of an issue with being autistic, and also being a part of the Latino community. I know that I'm a little.\r\n\r\n59 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:08:26 --\u003e 00:08:34\r\nDifferent, I'm not exactly what they like. Look for. When they look at like a Latino.\r\n\r\n60 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:08:34 --\u003e 00:08:40\r\nEspecially since it's harder for me to socialize with them. Um.\r\n\r\n61 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:08:40 --\u003e 00:08:49\r\nI know it's just like, internalized bias, but it does genuinely like, actually hurt whenever I'm like.\r\n\r\n62 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:08:49 --\u003e 00:08:56\r\nLeft out of community events or things like that. Um, simply because like.\r\n\r\n63 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:08:56 --\u003e 00:09:00\r\nIt'll be too loud for me or lake. Um.\r\n\r\n64 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:09:00 --\u003e 00:09:05\r\nThis person actually thinks you're kind of weird so they don't want you there, you know.\r\n\r\n65 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:09:05 --\u003e 00:09:10\r\nUm, so it's kind of a struggle, um.\r\n\r\n66 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:09:10 --\u003e 00:09:20\r\nGoing to let me know events and, like, finding a good community of Latinos here, but it's kind of a struggle in general.\r\n\r\n67 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:09:20 --\u003e 00:09:36\r\nFor a lot of autistic people to find good communities where they, like, feel like they can be themselves and stuff so it's a little more difficult. I know that. For sure. Um.\r\n\r\n68 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:09:36 --\u003e 00:09:46\r\nIn terms of like an autism community I only know 1 other autistic person here. Um, and she's a coworker of mine. Um.\r\n\r\n69 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:09:46 --\u003e 00:09:53\r\nAnd autism in the workplace is very difficult to, um.\r\n\r\n70 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:09:53 --\u003e 00:09:59\r\nWhich especially like, on campus jobs, um.\r\n\r\n71 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:09:59 --\u003e 00:10:05\r\nI tend to stay away from campus jobs that are like.\r\n\r\n72 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:10:05 --\u003e 00:10:11\r\nSuper busy and Super hectic because I get overwhelmed. Um.\r\n\r\n73 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:10:11 --\u003e 00:10:19\r\nBut there's also like, kind of office politics that you have to take into account of that. It, it's like.\r\n\r\n74 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:10:19 --\u003e 00:10:23\r\nYeah, I've seen like, a lot of people.\r\n\r\n75 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:10:23 --\u003e 00:10:30\r\nKind of talk bad about that Co worker and because I'm much higher masking than she is.\r\n\r\n76 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:10:30 --\u003e 00:10:33\r\nSo, it's just like.\r\n\r\n77 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:10:33 --\u003e 00:10:38\r\nIf I wasn't as high masking, would you be treating me the same way?\r\n\r\n78 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:10:38 --\u003e 00:10:42\r\nYou know yeah. Can you do.\r\n\r\n79 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:10:42 --\u003e 00:10:51\r\nDescribe asking a little bit more. I feel like it's a term that only a few understand and that we should maybe discuss a little bit further. Um.\r\n\r\n80 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:10:51 --\u003e 00:10:57\r\nIn my experience masking is pretty much trying to.\r\n\r\n81 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:10:57 --\u003e 00:11:11\r\nFit into social expectations and standards when you were kind of, don't know how, or understand how exactly. I know that. I do a lot of scripting.\r\n\r\n82 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:11:11 --\u003e 00:11:24\r\nI do like things where I've watched other people interact, and I just like, act how they act. And that's kind of what I've been doing actually, since.\r\n\r\n83 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:11:24 --\u003e 00:11:28\r\nMiddle school, um.\r\n\r\n84 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:11:28 --\u003e 00:11:31\r\nIt started in middle school I feel, um.\r\n\r\n85 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:11:31 --\u003e 00:11:51\r\nWhere I didn't have very many friends, I was like, a weird kid, you know um, sorry, the lights went out. Um, I was a weird kid, you know um, so I would, like, watch what other people did and kind of mimic.\r\n\r\n86 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:11:51 --\u003e 00:12:04\r\nLike, do what they did just so I could, like, make more friends and do more things like socially. I feel like masking also really helps with, like, social fatigue kind of.\r\n\r\n87 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:12:04 --\u003e 00:12:11\r\nIt's like, kind of holding yourself back from the world.\r\n\r\n88 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:12:11 --\u003e 00:12:15\r\nYou know.\r\n\r\n89 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:12:15 --\u003e 00:12:18\r\nUm.\r\n\r\n90 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:12:18 --\u003e 00:12:35\r\nOkay, sorry that was another question I had growing up what did you find? Helps you cope with your autism as well as how they helped you on your road to college? Like, specifically where there are certain barriers you feel like you had to cross the other people probably did it on your road diversity.\r\n\r\n91 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:12:35 --\u003e 00:12:39\r\nI feel like.\r\n\r\n92 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:12:39 --\u003e 00:12:52\r\nA lot of my issues were based around, like, sensory input. So when i1st, I remember my 1st, during orientation my 1st day and I was, um, it was.\r\n\r\n93 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:12:52 --\u003e 00:12:57\r\nKind of way too much for me.\r\n\r\n94 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:12:57 --\u003e 00:13:03\r\nI remember like sitting in an auditorium and then they like.\r\n\r\n95 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:13:03 --\u003e 00:13:07\r\nSome personally came up on stage and was like.\r\n\r\n96 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:13:07 --\u003e 00:13:10\r\nAnd I was like, oh, my God please.\r\n\r\n97 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:13:10 --\u003e 00:13:15\r\nCalm down a little bit, you know um.\r\n\r\n98 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:13:15 --\u003e 00:13:19\r\nWhich, at the time I was like very, um.\r\n\r\n99 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:13:19 --\u003e 00:13:25\r\nHighly masking. I know I mask way less now. Um.\r\n\r\n100 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:13:25 --\u003e 00:13:30\r\nSo, at the time, I was just like, staring blankly the whole time at, like.\r\n\r\n101 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:13:30 --\u003e 00:13:35\r\nThe person that was talking, and I think I scared him a little bit honestly, but.\r\n\r\n102 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:13:35 --\u003e 00:13:50\r\nUm, yeah, a lot of sensory input is like a really big barrier for me. I can't like, go to loud noise, like, places with, like, loud noises or flashing lights. So, a lot of like.\r\n\r\n103 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:13:50 --\u003e 00:13:53\r\nFootball games like.\r\n\r\n104 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:13:53 --\u003e 00:14:02\r\nStuff like that, it's kind of off limits for me. So are like, a lot of even birthday parties are difficult for me to go to. Um.\r\n\r\n105 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:14:02 --\u003e 00:14:08\r\nI feel like the main thing academically we're lecture halls.\r\n\r\n106 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:14:08 --\u003e 00:14:23\r\nLecture halls were the worst like 150 people in 1 space all talking at the same time while like a man is like, in front of us talking at us. It was awful. Um.\r\n\r\n107 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:14:23 --\u003e 00:14:28\r\nSo, I always sat in the back next to the doors, or in the front next the doors.\r\n\r\n108 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:14:28 --\u003e 00:14:33\r\nSo that I can leave, like, as fast as possible, right?\r\n\r\n109 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:14:33 --\u003e 00:14:39\r\nSo, during coven and the rise of online classes.\r\n\r\n110 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:14:39 --\u003e 00:14:47\r\nDid you, or why did you struggle with online learning with autism? Just due to the surplus number of screens at the time.\r\n\r\n111 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:14:50 --\u003e 00:15:01\r\nI definitely struggled with, like, having to look at a screen for so long. Um, but I.\r\n\r\n112 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:15:01 --\u003e 00:15:05\r\nI remember I was actually a lot happier.\r\n\r\n113 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:15:05 --\u003e 00:15:14\r\nDuring colvard because I was kind of away from social situations for the most part I like.\r\n\r\n114 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:15:14 --\u003e 00:15:22\r\nHad my little bundle of friends at that point. So I was like, talking to those people.\r\n\r\n115 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:15:22 --\u003e 00:15:27\r\nSo, I wasn't like completely isolated either. I had like.\r\n\r\n116 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:15:27 --\u003e 00:15:36\r\nA buffer I feel between, like me and like, everything else that was going on. That was way too overwhelming for me to be at.\r\n\r\n117 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:15:36 --\u003e 00:15:41\r\nUm, most of the time, and I remember.\r\n\r\n118 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:15:41 --\u003e 00:15:45\r\nThe hardest part for me were like, the.\r\n\r\n119 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:15:45 --\u003e 00:15:56\r\nThe time management and executive function of it all to lake actually manage to do my class work.\r\n\r\n120 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:15:56 --\u003e 00:16:05\r\nAnd, like, actually make myself do it because I have autism and ADHD. So it's, it's like.\r\n\r\n121 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:16:05 --\u003e 00:16:14\r\nPart of me wants to strictly follow the little schedule that I wrote out. Then the other part of me doesn't want to do it at all. So, um.\r\n\r\n122 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:16:14 --\u003e 00:16:20\r\nI would get very easily distracted. I would like hop from 1 thing to another thing. Um.\r\n\r\n123 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:16:20 --\u003e 00:16:28\r\nSo, kind of learning how to like, self discipline again, um, with like, all of the.\r\n\r\n124 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:16:28 --\u003e 00:16:35\r\nKind of solo education that I had to do. I feel like that kind of prepared me for college a little bit.\r\n\r\n125 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:16:35 --\u003e 00:16:40\r\nUm, but, yeah, and then.\r\n\r\n126 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:16:40 --\u003e 00:16:45\r\nMy last question is what has been your best experience at Iowa state so far.\r\n\r\n127 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:16:45 --\u003e 00:16:53\r\nAnd also like a double added question, how is this class help? You find a sense of community feeling.\r\n\r\n128 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:16:53 --\u003e 00:16:57\r\n1 of my best.\r\n\r\n129 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:16:57 --\u003e 00:17:01\r\nKind of experiences here and I was state.\r\n\r\n130 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:17:01 --\u003e 00:17:14\r\nWas oh, that's a hard 1 actually. Um, um, kind of figuring out which major I wanted to be in, because I started out as a.\r\n\r\n131 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:17:14 --\u003e 00:17:17\r\nBiochemistry major, um.\r\n\r\n132 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:17:17 --\u003e 00:17:21\r\nBut there were a lot of like, really big lecture halls and, um.\r\n\r\n133 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:17:21 --\u003e 00:17:25\r\nKind of a lot of stuff that would hinder me.\r\n\r\n134 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:17:25 --\u003e 00:17:36\r\nMost of the time, um, and I just realized it wasn't something that I wanted to be doing. Um, ever since I was little, I had like, a little fascination with bones.\r\n\r\n135 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:17:36 --\u003e 00:17:46\r\nSo, I ended up choosing to be with apologized so that I could study bones.\r\n\r\n136 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:17:46 --\u003e 00:17:57\r\nCool. And then lastly about this class, do you feel like it helped you found a community within who you are, and just general acceptance.\r\n\r\n137 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:17:57 --\u003e 00:18:03\r\nI feel like it honestly did I haven't been able to like.\r\n\r\n138 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:18:03 --\u003e 00:18:10\r\nSay, the things that I have said in this class, like, ever before.\r\n\r\n139 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:18:10 --\u003e 00:18:14\r\nAnd it's like, I feel like.\r\n\r\n140 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:18:14 --\u003e 00:18:24\r\nPeople are finally seeing a little piece of me that I never really wanted or, like, could show other people. So it's definitely.\r\n\r\n141 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:18:24 --\u003e 00:18:37\r\nSomething different I've seen, like, mixed reactions to me as a person before but like, now it's like, the only reaction I've been getting is, like, support.\r\n\r\n142 \"Amanda Zarazua\" (733272064)\r\n00:18:37 --\u003e 00:18:45\r\nSo, I really, really love that. Um, yeah. Okay.\r\n\r\n143 \"Annalyce Boyd\" (590238464)\r\n00:18:45 --\u003e 00:18:49\r\nAnd that's all that I had for you today.\r\n\r\n\\","format":"text/plain"},"target":"https://iastate.aviaryplatform.com/collections/2981/collection_resources/135077/file/250076#t=0.0,1070.32"}]}]}]}